Dostoevsky…

there was always this anger…always mad…

at him..

him…them…everybody…nothing specific…

had ta’ be…

be what…

specific…a focused rage…right…

nothing was focused… not work…family…certainly not anger…

why then…mad at what…

don’t know…

don’t know…

….no….

born this way…a curse from the seventh moon on high…some kinda’ mania from youth…a slight…

I don’t know…just know I’m mad all the time…

and what happens…

when I’m mad…

yes…when you get mad…

uh…lookout….umm…stupid things…dumb actions…

towards others…

only myself…just me…

why’d think that is…what’d you think…

couldn’t tell ya’…well…could…then I’d have ta’ kill ya’…

right…

ummm…

whydya’ punish yourself …do ya’ need to be punished…you deserve that…

maybe…maybe…

for what…

d’ya ever read  Crime and Punishment…

Dostoevsky…

yea…the Russian…

yes…

no morals…no self-monitoring….just acting-out as needed…as needed…

Crime and Punishment…

yea…

let me ask ya’…d’ya think the young man in that story needed ta’ kill the old lady…was that necessary…

for him…yes…for him…we all have our quirks…right…

‘spose… you ever wanna kill anybody…

other than me…

you…

yes…me…no…no…

what stops you…what keeps you from it…

madness…

umm…madness…

yes…

how…

well…if I was sane…I would’ve left this crazy world a long time ago…

so…only the crazies are sticking ’round…

that’s my bet…

Published by: dmseay

The writing is based on my surroundings and what I've been surrounded by. This language is coarse and politically incorrect; which I make no apologies for. These characters are not nice and to use any other dialogue would be disingenuine. That being said, I choose to roll the dice. dm seay

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