just runnin’ away…

the road was empty…maybe every once in a while a jack rabbit or opossum would run across the highway…but no traffic…just a black night with some stars out…so few you could count ’em…

he turned the radio off…music was loud and tinny comin’ through the speakers of the old Dodge…couldn’t make -out the words to Springsteen’s, Blinded By The Light…sometimes silence is your best friend…

kept thinkin’ these thoughts of offin’ himself…ending it all…didn’t really see a purpose to livin’ anymore…wanted to jump into a void and just keep fallin’…wasn’t sure ’bout final destinations or gods…inner peace…mansions of gold…nothin’…just wanted to fall into that void…be swallowed-up by a big black hole…

would have these panic-attacks over the smallest of things…no clean laundry…gettin’ lost…a boss yellin’ at him…things normal people shake-off he couldn’t…and that’s when the thoughts creeped in…these thoughts of doin’ harm to himself…poppin’ a bunch of pills…jumpin’ in a river…drinkin’ himself to death like Dylan Thomas…somethin’ to ease pain…somethin’…

and he’d always had pain…was nothin’ new…’cept now it was gettin’ worse…gettin’ darker…his whole life consisted of nothin’ but thoughts of suicide…couldn’t explain it…was always that way…always…

just another form of runnin’ away from somethin’…he was real good at runnin’ away…maybe that’s what he was doin’ out on the highway that night…just runnin’ away…

Published by: dmseay

The writing is based on my surroundings and what I've been surrounded by. This language is coarse and politically incorrect; which I make no apologies for. These characters are not nice and to use any other dialogue would be disingenuine. That being said, I choose to roll the dice. dm seay

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