only exist…

how ya’ doin’ pop..

alright I guess…

oh yea…

yep…I mean…I just exist…

you exist therefore you are…

I exist therefore I am…

are you having an existential moment dad…

don’t know what you’d call it…just call it existing…existing ’cause there’s nothin’ else to do at this time…

i see…

the alternative scares me…

alternative…

yea…non-existent…nothin’…bein’ no more than just bones in a bag…or burned-up ash…don’t let ’em do that to me…did that to mom ya’ know…or is she still alive…

no pop…she’s past on…

thought so…couldn’t remember…damndest thing…I thought they cremated her…but wasn’t sure if she was dead or not…strangest thing…I forget sometimes…

she wanted to be cremated…those were her wishes…

don’t say…not me…not me…

no pop…we’re gonna place you in a casket and put mom in there with ya’…

be ‘nough room…

yep…be ‘nough room…

right now I just exist…

yea…you exist therefore you are…

I don’t know what all that means…but…o.k. …

you’re here now pop…in the present…

guess so…I guess so…wanna chocolate covered cherry…only get these at Christmas time…

i’m o.k. dad…

you visit mom today…

no…i didn’t go out there…

well when you see her tell her I’m on my way outta this hospital soon…

can’t pop…

what…

nevermind…i’ll tell her…i’ll tell her…

wanna see her ‘gain…get outta here and start livin’ ‘gain…maybe take mom up to Canada…she likes Canada…

how ya’ gonna do that pop…

oh yea…she’s gone ain’t she…

yea…

well right now I just exist…I just exist…wanna chocolate covered cherry…

no thanks…

only get ’em at Christmas time…

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