couldn’t keep em straight…too many rules to follow…got to be a relationship built on instructions…guess she thought she could control me that way…guess she thought it was best if she was in charge…

so…I let her…let her be in charge…dictated where the money went…how it was spent…every dollar was spoken for…I’d go out for a beer after work and get an earful…everything had to have her approval see…everything…

and this led to other deals in the marriage…what we would eat…places we’d go to…when we’d make love…it’s as if all activities were scheduled…like she had a plan…

so…one day after work at the factory…spendin’ all day screwin’ bolts…I drove on my way home…and I didn’t pull into the gravel driveway…just kept on drivin’…drove out past the town park…past the DQ…drove on out to 24 headin’ east…towards the Ohio line…kept drivin’ the old Ford truck on into the night…threw the cellphone out the window…kept watchin’ the orange line hoverin’ ’round E…I just kept drivin’…

there was this real sense of freedom I had…like I was a bird flyin’ solo…the smell of alfalfa come up through the vents…a full moon shined down on me…

yep…a real sense of freedom…guess it’s what I always wanted…didn’t say goodbye…didn’t write a letter…sure she figured it out…